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[15 Jul 2004|08:23pm]
1 glass of water
1 medium bowl of shreddies with skimmed milk
1 peach

1 probiotic yogurt drink
1 Glass of water
1 slice of white toasted bread
Scrambled egg: 2 eggs, semi skimmed milk, freshly chopped parsley, cracked pepper and salt
2 cheese slices *light

Snacks throughout the day:
1 peach
2 glasses of water
1 handful of rasberries
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Food [14 Jul 2004|10:48am]
1 handful of fresh rasberries
1 glass of tap water
1 muller pro-biotic low fat drink
1 fresh peach

Medium plate of Spaghetti Bolognese
2tsp of Parmesan Cheese
2 glasses of tap water

1 small mixed leaf salad containing: celery, yellow pepper, mixed leaves lettuce, almonds, cherry tomatoes, red onion, mushroom, topped with 1 thin slice of salami and 2 extra thin slices of prosciuto
1 handful of fresh rasberries
2 glasses of water

Snacks throughout the day:
5 peanut M n M's
1 packet of prawn cocktail crisps
1 glass of tap water
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[18 Aug 2003|05:47pm]
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[24 Jun 2003|08:17am]

Your Sexual Energy is Blue!

Blue represents an experimental mindset, and an unpredictability that you are only in touch with.

You are not pure, nor are you totally naughty. You are on the borderline.

Will you fall into complete kinkiness, or will you back up into being a normal girl?

Your strength is your open-mindedness to try new things.

You are confident to follow-through on your lover's fantasies.

You often even add your own special edge to them.

Do they want to be tied down?

Well, how about a massage first, and then tickles to drive them crazy?

Blue women know how to mix and match and come out with extraordinary results.

You go about snagging your partners by sneaking up to them and then playing twenty questions.

Your targets are often puzzled by your ability to draw out their darkest secrets on a first date.

However, you still like to keep your own secrets to yourself.

You could spice your sex life up a bit if you let go of some of your own secrets, and let it all hang out!

Tell 'em your desires.

You might just surprise yourself!

Carmen Electra and Catherine Zeta Jones, although both very different celebs, have been honing this blue sexual energy.
Follow their lead!

And, for some compatible lovers, look for those who have sexual energies in the colors of red, gray, and brown.

What Color is Your Sexual Energy?

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[14 Jun 2003|11:31am]

You Are An Intense Kisser!

Deep tounging, nibbling, and locking lips for hours are on your agenda.

You've been known to wear lovers out with your kiss, before getting to anything else on the menu.

And given that you kiss so well... imagine how you do everything else.

What Your Kissing Style Says About You:

When you want something you go for it, and you don't let go until it's yours.

And when you feel, you feel intensely (surprised?). You have a dramatic streak, no doubt.

If you're in a relationship, you don't take anything lightly. And neither should your lover.

Your Personal Kissing Matches and Mismatches:

Hook up with other Intense Kissers to have the experience of a life time. You'll both feel incredible things, both
in your heart and down there! If you are looking for an even more sexual fun, find the nearest Carnal Kisser.
You'll get kissed down there just right.

Stay away from Manic Kissers at all costs. They spread it around a little too much to give you the passion you crave.
And forget about Juicy Kissers as well - they seem a bit too superficial for you.

How Do *You* Kiss?

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GAHHHHH! [05 May 2003|05:03pm]
The best revenge! You would make Avril listen to
Sk8ter Boi over and over and over and over and
over again until she went insane and killed
herself. What a shame...

How would you torture and kill Avril Lavigne?
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How right........ [03 May 2003|07:47pm]
jet black new year
What Thursday Song Are You?

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You are "Jet Black New Year." Events seem to be upsetting you. Unbelievably sensitive to your surroundings, you feel for everyone. You see tragedy and you see celebration and you can't deal with their coexistance. You find people cold and dispassionate. You try to sort thoughts and ideas through your mind and deal with your emotions. The world seems to rush past you as you stand. Not knowing how to think, feel, or what to do, you feel detached and removed. Understanding the value of life, you try to live it, but you can't seem to. You will.
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[25 Mar 2003|07:50pm]
Alone :(
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No Doubt Fest! c/o Alchy Apple thanks hon! [25 Mar 2003|11:25am]

what tragic kingdom song are you?

find out what you are here

find out which no doubt album you are here

what no doubt video are you?

which one of no doubt's major opening acts are you?
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[21 Mar 2003|10:30am]
your asshole.

What swear word are you?
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Whatchu lookin' at! [28 Dec 2002|12:12am]
[ mood | crazy ]

sex kitten! rarr!

Hot women, whether you desire to be one or desire to be with one a rad site!

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House Sitter [29 Nov 2002|08:49am]
[ mood | awake ]

At the moment, I'm sitting here in my nightie while Dan has gone to college.
It's kinda weird...it's almost like playing out that we live together seein as I'm all alone in his house. His mum has gone to New York for a short break.
That meant we finally got the long awaited chance of spending the night together and...well...:)*wow* hehe yeah that's all I have to say on that one.
The window cleaners are currently here and I'm doing my best to remain invisible! There's no way I'm letting em see me in this mingtastic state.
Got my hair project in a few hours....cannot wait! I'm desparate to reknew my barnet...just need to dye it a reddish colour when I get home.
As usual I'm super starving...thats the one bad thing about staying away from home, you never know where they keep the food!!! As well as it being extreemly rude to go rummaging around. I'll wait for the boy to get back.

Joe and I worked together at Presence for the first time...I have a feeling it's going to be a pants wetting experience every shift hehe. I'm glad he works there. I saw Will(sarah's x) and the dreads look fab. The hairpolice trainees did a rad job....I so can't wait for mine!

GGGGRRR it's pissing me off the fact I can't walk anywhere in case those little window cleaners take a peek. Not that they'll find anything worth looking at but you know what I mean!

Well; thats all for now.

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[27 Nov 2002|11:19am]
What Type Of Retro Gal Are You?

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That lump in your throat [26 Nov 2002|03:15pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

I wish I were at home in my room right now,
With the door tightly shut,
So I could just curl up in my blankets; and be away.
I'm so unhappy here right now.
Everyday is a grin and bear it day....there is an answer, there is way out but for so many valid reasons I cannot take it right now.

I know the things that make me smile sincerely, laugh til my sides hurt, cry over things that mean so much to me...and I'm sorry to say that none of those things exist here...other than my few but *true true* friends. Sometimes I don't even know why they value me as much as they do..but I keep telling myself, to ignore it all and to just swallow hard on that lump in your throat because underneath it all I have the most spectacular boyfriend who would do anything for me, and a few close close friends that love ou dearly.

I just wish I wasn't such an emotive, complex individual. It hurts sometimes....even though I don't always show how much, it hurts nonethe less.

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Fuck all [26 Nov 2002|12:11pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

hmm let's see...
Art really wasn't half as bad as I'd expected but she's still force feeding me her shitty ideas. I really don't get her.
Seeing Dan last night was great, then silly but then ultimately fantastic. He's great, I miss him even if we do go all weird on eachother. [but it's actually down to me being a stupido]
Friday I get my hair done which I'm looking forward to immensely. I'm also going to be assisting Sonia in a dread perm me thinks if I can get there on time. Damn unreliable public transport.
I feel like quite a dyke today..being a little geezer as usual. I'm wearing quite boyish outfits to college. Mum came back this morning with loads and loads of t-shirts, shorts, trousers...mainly of th Dickies line (wicked).

well I'm hungry so get outta my face!

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Fucking poopity Poop Poop [25 Nov 2002|09:19am]
[ mood | stressed ]

Damn these days when you feel like jumping of a gajillion foot building.
Saying that I'm stressed is a total understatement.
I look absolutely hideous today also, as soon as I arrived into college I scuttled off to the toilet and gazed into the mirror and to my horror it was like every single blemish was magnified a billion times.
Ugliness. Blah. I can't wait for my hair to be redone. It'll be therapy for me.

I have art 6th period and I'm so shitting my pants. I had a deadline that I have not met. I was planning to catch up with everything last night but no...my stupid ass had to get distracted and go down to the pub. But some guy drew me tank girl stylee and I was pretty impressed. Damn, I have no discipline at all. I saw Dan last night for like a second. He decided to show up at The Goose when I was ironically in the pub across the street. I was missing him lots as well but then when we actually were together he acted all weird. It's cuz he's feeling a bit sick but that didn't stop him from hanging out with his friends and being fine with them. I know he's feeling off but that doesn't give him the freedom to treat me like I'm of no importance. All i wanted to do was make him feel better. I'm kinda hating this whole I'd drop the world for him but he'd do jack-shit buisness.
The scales are rather imbalanced.
When he left the pub, Will and Hollie wern't too impressed that he never said bye or hi to either of them and began discussing how ignorant he is. Sometimes I agree with them but because I love him so much I make exceptions and excuses for him because to me he's so so near to perfect.
I mean theres nothing wrong between us.....it's just every now and again we have these little difference in personality clashes and we end up bumping heads.
I think that I get so easily peed off by cold shoulder moments is because the time Dan and I have together is valuable. Chances of us being together through university are slim to none so I just want to savour each second we have together. When we're without one another I know we'll regret not spending the time we had on eachother which is probably why I get so antsy when he says he'll see me but then blows me off at the last minute or will say he's seeing his friends.I just know that this isn't forever and I want to make the most of it while I can. I don't think he really realises that.

Oh well, this rant hasn't let off any steam unfortunately. I'm still worried about art, still hungry, still feeling shitty. I want to go home but I can't because I've already missed so much college.
Mum gets back from holiday tommorrow. Maybe they'll be a bit more order in the household. My dad warned us this morning that there'd be a major clean up session tonight.
Yeah, like that's going to happen.
The only reason why he's doing that is so that it will look like he's kept the house spotless the whole entire time my mums been away.
Sometimes I wish I were somebody else. Like the owner of a successful tattoo studio...yeppers that's the life for me.

I better go this rant is makin me depressed. Maybe i'll see Dan tonight and he can make me happy but if he's gonna be all like "fuck off I'm ill" then I guess this mood will never cease. BLAH BLAH BLAH!

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[14 Oct 2002|05:36pm]

What kind of punk are you?

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[11 Oct 2002|09:50am]

Just How Weird Are You?

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[04 Oct 2002|07:42pm]

What kind of punk kid are you?

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My Inner Hair Color is Redhead!
What's YOUR Inner Hair Color?

I Am
The Distillers
The band that will RiOT till the end!
Dude...I'm cooler than your mom! I can kick your ass to the curb! RiOT!
Which Girly 'Punk' Band Are You!?
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Tummy Ache [14 Jun 2002|10:34pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

I hate being a girl :( I hate it so much. Why do you have to get all hormonal and stuff? It sucks. I'd make a better boy I think. My tummy hurts and I just want to cry. For what reason? None what so ever. Hormones = Shit

I spoke to Mike yesterday for over an hour on the phone and I found out he reads all this. I'm really embarassed about that; really really embarassed. But I've decided to not change anything because these are my recorded feelings of how I felt at one specific time. All my intentions of keeping this journal wouldn't be carried out if I were to change things or to restrain myself from expressing how I feel. I wanted it to have public access, so public it shall remain. I just hope noone gets offended or takes what I say too seriously. I change my mind so often it's hard to determine what I really mean and what I don't. So without further ado...May my newest entry be added.

First day back at college today. I woke up at 6:30am for the bus, and what for? NOTHING! Hardly anybody showed up today. It was a waste of time. So after 1st and 2nd period I went to town with Rachel O'Sullivan. It turns out we got to know eachother again; and she really is a great girl. I'm just sorry we lost touch because she's now going to be leaving for a new college. It's sad how that happens.

We went to Cafe' Giardino and we talked over the different things accumulating in our minds over cigarettes and sugar lumps. I felt like I should be a Beatnik or something! I'm not really a "cafe' go-er". She twisted my arm and had me back into the old habbit of smoking socially which I thought I had grown out of. This better not be a newly found habit of mine. I was explaining how lately, you just never know whats going to be around the corner, how there are things you're just never prepared for. Incidents that have happened to me over the past month, I just never could have predicted. At that precise moment, a person walks past the window seat, that I had sluggishly sprawled myself upon. I looked up and there was a guy casually walking past who glanced in my direction. He saw me and smiled. He had blue eyes, dark hair closely shaven with a big smile sporting perfect teeth. He was very handsome; someone I may have liked a few years ago but not so much now. However, I smiled back and giggled pathetically to Rachel. Her response was "Oh my god! He's So fit!" Yes, I agree but he was almost too conventional. Anyway, I watched where he was heading outside and he walked away towards the shopping centre. I turned around and went on back to the conversation I was having with Rachel. Her eyes suddenly lit up and she squealed "Oh my god hes coming back! He's coming back!" I then realised he was actually coming into the cafe'! He was walking towards me. I rose instantly from my sluggish position and looked down, pretending to rummage through my bag. Why? I don't know! It was something to do!? I was really nervous i was thinking "please! this cannot be happening... this cannot be happening".
uh oh, just happened. He sat down beside me and began talking to me. I didn't know what to think. He was quite forward and confident- like he had done this before. He asked me questions like my name and what I did for a living. I was like "Are you kidding I'm still in school!?" He asked me how old I was- I told him 16. I shoulda said 15. I love that gag. I asked him for his age and he replied "23". (HAHAH thats sounds EXACTLY like the Homegrown song, Sixteen!) HOLY SHIT! I thought he was going to say 19. Not because he looked young but, I dunno; perhaps I was hoping he'd be closer to my age. His name was Sam, and his occupation is some kind of Something or other Audio engineer. I don't know what he was talking about but I nodded with enthusiasm. It sounded like he was pretty smart. He asked me to come out for a drink but I had work so I couldn't. He told me I was "lovely" and asked for my number. I gave to to him and he said he'd call me after work. I shook his hand and that was that. Just he was leaving a few of my friends entered the cafe' and saw him. They all liked him but I dunno, he still seemed to cheesy. Plus the whole time he was telling me about himself i just kept thinking I wish Mike was sitting here telling me about himself.

After work I had two missed calls both from Sam. And he left a messsage on my phone. Now I'm stuck debating do I give him a try? I mean I might end up liking him, but I don't really know.
Ok without freaking anybody out here; I like Mike so much but realistically What's going to happen? Nothing :( And he's probably not as sprung as I am.
That pains me but I can't get attatched to something that can't happen. its not fair and it makes me sound like an emotional pyscho when I'm really quite sane! Honest! This guy is here, he's near but is that a good enough reason? He could be good for me but all I keep thinking is what about Mike?!

Somebody tell me what to do!!!! I'm shit at this!

Thought for the day: Be careful what you wish for because it just might come true and then youre left with more than you can handle goddammit!

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